He kept going even after I started crying

Our first time was not at all how I imagined, not at all like he told me it would be. He told me since I was a virgin he would light candles, play some music and go really slow and be so gentle. And when I arrived at his place during the day he instantly said “wanna have sex.” It wasn’t even a question, but I said yes because I was in love.....I kept waiting for him to be romantic and sweet but he pulled his pants to his feet pulled my skirt up and started trying to put his dick in, I wasn’t wet so I was grimacing and wincing I’m pain, he didn’t stop. He quickly finished and cleaned up, pulled his pants up and laid down for a nap without another word. Tears were flowing and I stayed. I stayed, even though it was painful every time, I would start crying during and he would just jeep going. 3 years later it still makes me so sad that my first time was so horrible.