Exactly as it sounds. Does anyone hate breastfeeding? I WANT to enjoy it, I know its supposed to be this great bonding experience and soo good for both of us. But honestly I'm frustrated and angry 99% of the time. Baby had ties, then had thrush and now shes super fussy and I just feel soo anxious and upset when shes hungry. She doesn't sleep unless shes on the boob/or face first nipple in the nose. Wont take a soother. This is my second baby and I only made it 7 weeks with my first due to undercut ties and terrible support. This time I have great support, ties revised. But I was diagnosed with IGT (insufficient glandular tissue) meaning my breasts didnt develop enough milk glands so I'm likely not gonna produce enough milk without alot of help from supplements or medications. I'm just feeling overwhelmed and angry with it all. I want to just quit and actually enjoy my baby instead of dread her needing me. Particularly if I'm gonna have to struggle and supplement anyways. Its taking so much from my 1st kid too, shes jealous and needs me too. But I'm always feeding the baby.

I KNOW all the benefits of breastfeeding/breastmilk and had serious guilt with my first for not being able to nurse. But now I have serious guilt about hating my baby when she wants to feed. And guilty for wanting to quit and guilty cuz I give all my time energy to the baby and get frustrated with my toddler for needing me.

And yeah I'm posting anonymously cuz people are bitches.

*Edited to add we're 5 weeks into this, I've asked for my antidepressants back to see if that helps but Dunno how long it will take for them to help. Yes they're BF safe Karen, shut up.