I thought I had my PPD and PPA under control. Then shit hit the fan in my life and it hit hard. I almost lost my dad is a semi accident he was paralyzed from the neck down. He should have died but thank God he didn’t. Then I lost my 3 month old nephew 2 days after my daughters 1st birthday. Less than 3 weeks after we lost his mom. My sister in law. My anxiety has me convinced something bad is going to happen to either me or my child and my depression has me no wanting to do anything but lay around. But my anxiety is so bad I can’t sleep because I’m afraid I won’t wake up if I do. I got 4 hours of sleep last night and since my husband was gone working all night it’s a blessing I got any at all. I just started counseling. I haven’t seen much of an improvement yet but I’ve only had two sessions! Don’t wait to get help like I did. If you feel like your starting to go down tell someone! Before your alone at night calling hour husband in the middle of a panic attack while he’s 3 hours away.