I just am numb

So last night working I tripped and hit my head. Luckily I don't have internal bleeding or broken bones just bad concussion and lots of bruising all over.

I cried last night because here I am at the emergency room and my husband and son are in the parking lot freaking out. We had no one to call to help us with him. My mom was our go to and she is now paralyzed in the hospital after her stroke.

I'm a independent contractor so I have to pay out of pocket for my hospital. We also just got our septic bill for 20k and we will need to cover another 5-10k over that for what that doesn't cover.

Today packing my body full of ice and trying not barf....I am so numb by this life....just doesn't matter how kind we are, hard working, or do the right things.