Low self worth

I hate myself and my life, but have no motivation to change because I don't care about myself. I feel worthless everyday. I have made small improvements, but keep avoiding the big stuff.

I've never dated, never gone to a party, haven't had my first kiss, can't drive, have no goals or dreams.... I feel like a waste of oxygen and I feel like I am. I know my family is disappointed in me.

I know I can change and I know I can do anything I want to if I put my mind to it, but I am extremely anxious and think I don't deserve anything good