I’ll try and make this as quick as possible.

I have 1 daughter who is 13 months. Before her I had 4 miscarriages. And I’ve had one after her. So a total of 6 pregnancies with only 1 being successful.

With my daughter I went to a clinic in Michigan that was an hour away from me that my ob recommended. I did a hybrid cycle (Femara, gonal f and ovidril with times intercourse) and that worked.

I’m trying to get pregnant again and the fertility dr I saw to get pregnant with my daughter retired so I figured I’d see the doctor that is in my city since it’s closer and I already have a game plan that works.

This new doctor is very against me taking the gonal f injections for the risk of multiples. My husband and I were hesitant to agree to the change but we said ok after the dr explained that if she felt I needed the injections mid cycle she would put me on them. I have “unexplained” infertility. A version of pcos and my body doesn’t line up with my brain to release the correct chemicals at the correct time. That’s how the dr explained it. I get pregnant very easy just can’t stay pregnant.

I started my cycle yesterday so I had my bloodwork and ultrasound this morning. Everything seemed to go well until I brought up the gonal f. They nurses became so rude and very unprofessional. They read the notes from the doctor to me saying that the doctor wrote absolutely no gonal f because I’m high risk for miscarriage. Which I understand that. It’s not new to me. But then the nurses began to tell me that this cycle will not work and that I need to look into <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a>. And that I only stayed pregnant with my daughter because of luck. Which I know for a fact that that’s not true. I started crying because of how upset I was. I apologized to them for crying and said I know what I’m doing is VERY minimal to what other women go through but this was still emotional for me. The nurse then told me she had a patient there today that had 9 miscarriages with no children. She she basically told me that I should stop crying.

To make matters worse this month is our only shot before my husband deploys and he won’t be back until spring. So I can’t just cancel this cycle and try next month.

My husband called the office to ask to speak with the doctor. And one of the nurses answered and they refused to apologize. We have a telehealth appointment on Thursday with the doctor so we’ll see what she says.

I know I am SO BLESSED to have my daughter. I am so grateful for that and I never take that for granted. But to have someone especially a medical professional act so distastefully towards me was so upsetting. I feel as if they are setting me up to fail and were so pushy with <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a>. I feel as if that should be a last case scenario.

I just needed to vent to some ladies who know how emotional this is. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and I’ll feel more optimistic.