I delivered baby boy 7/5/2020. We intended to have a 24 hour release. Baby’s pulse and heart rate have been slightly high and after 48 hours he was admitted into the NICU. I wanted to go home the whole time and broke down multiple times because I had not slept the whole time I was there. I left without him and decided to get some sleep. I feel awfully guilty I left him there and I can’t get over it. I called to check on him and he probably has to stay again. I feel awful I left him to sleep and I just want him home because I’m still in deep pain and don’t want to move. Am I horrible?