In March of this year I had to do something so heartbreaking for any woman. I had to say goodbye to someone I could never meet because I couldn’t give them the gift of life. I wasn’t ready for a baby...

but I wasn’t ready for an abortion either.

I got the surgery because I wasn’t ready, I am too young and have no savings. My partner is in debt and can’t support one right now but for some crazy reason, I still wanted to keep her and try to make it work, I was hoping my partner would too.... But either way, I have a blood clotting issue and it wasn’t safe for me to continue the pregnancy which might have been a sign, who knows.

My partner and I named her (yes I decided it was going to be a girl) Blue. I think I named her that because as a kid I used to think the pretty bluebirds in my backyard were my spirits in life form to check in on me.

So i know a lot of women want to put their abortions in the past, which I respect, but I wanted to do something to honour and remember Blue, everyday.

My family is not religious but they are strict and I could never tell them I got pregnant, let alone tell them I got the surgery.

So for anyone who wants to have a memento to honour their baby, without the hassle of making up a different story for the objects meaning or hiding it and feeling ashamed. I recommend to do what I did, it hasn’t come in the mail yet but I can’t wait for it to.

I got a photo projection bracelet with her 10 weeks ultrasound inside, edited to be the colour Blue like her name. So only I can see it if I put my phone up to it, and I don’t have to tell anybody that the bracelet has that feature!

I love you Baby Blue 💙