Tomorrow marks 1 year since my best friend committed suiacide. The 15th marks 5 years since my uncle committed suiacide. And December 4th marks 3 years since another uncle committed suiacide. The last few days I've felt nothing but numbness and anger. I have no friends left. My fiancé is always telling me that I'm never happy and that when I'm mad at other people I take it out on him. When I cry he just gets mad and says he never does anything right. We've been trying for a year to have a baby and nothing is working. I feel like everything in my life is my fault. We are currently living with my parents because we moved out of a horrible financial  situation. My fiancé is working with my dad and I'm searching for a job. I'm just in this hole and have nobody to talk to. I feel so alone sometimes. I have Facebook and have 700 or so friends and only my mom and brothers talk to me.