I feel like I’m ready to TTC again. However the one thing that is holding me back is the amount of miscarriages I’ve had this year already (3 in total). I’m scared to go through it again. The heartbreak is unbearable but at the same time the more losses I have the more I really want our little bubba.

I have had bloods done, one came back a little low and I was supposed to be booked to go into hospital to haematology. However I have yet to receive my letter in the post (been about 6 weeks since my bloods) called the doctors to be told they didn’t do what they needed to do their end therefore I need to contact the hospital myself and get booked in. I have called the hospital and left a voicemail but obviously at the moment they’re very busy so haven’t heard anything yet!

When me and my fiancé first found out we were pregnant we got quite excited and started buying little bits. I have packed them away now but looking at them from time to time makes me so broody and want to start trying again!

A part of me is saying wait until I have my appointment and hopefully find out what the issue is. Another part of me is thinking I don’t know how long I’ll have to wait for, this is something we both desperately want why not just start trying again.

I can’t wait for the day we finally get to hold our bubba💗

Some of the bits we got. Aren’t baby clothes just the cutest!🥺