Mom and sister are weighing me down 😔

Sarah • 👦🏼 PSP 8/1/18 👶🏻🎀 SGP Due 10/17/20

I just need to vent. My sister is also pregnant right now, due in two weeks. I’m due Oct 17th. We’ve been so excited to be pregnant together and we’re both having girls and so excited for them to grow up together. This is my second pregnancy but her first. Well quarantine obviously put a damper on us being able to do things together to enjoy our pregnancies. My husband and I have been keeping a strict quarantine but no one else in my family has. So my mom and sister have been spending a ton of time together and the few times that I have been around them my mom hasn’t even acknowledged my pregnancy. She only talks about my sister. Will only ask my sister if her baby is moving while we’re sitting there talking and only calls my sister to ask her how she’s feeling. My mom did all of that with me when I was pregnant with my first and I totally get it that my sister is having her first and I never wanted to take anything away from her so I never said anything. But I can’t help but feel like they’ve just ignored my pregnancy or will compare my symptoms to hers by saying “you’re not even as far along” or “you’re not even as big as her” and it’s really started to get me down. Now I’m sure my insane hormones are making me way more emotional about all of this than I normally would be. But I’m already feeling down from being stuck at home so much and now I’m feeling left out from my own family. My sister picked up on my emotions and we talked about it some so my mom knows I’ve been upset from my sister but instead of apologizing or showing more effort it’s caused her to completely stop calling me. She and I now haven’t talked in a month. And she hasn’t seen my son in 5 weeks whereas she used to ask to see him every weekend even if it was just standing out in our front yard. She is a VERY stubborn person who never admits fault or apologizes and always says just “suck it up” or “get over it” when we’re upset. My sister and I are still talking and she’s being a little more supportive but still makes comments that Make me feel like it’s a pregnancy competition. This just has been a very lonely pregnancy. I feel like I haven’t been able to celebrate it or talk about it with anyone other than my husband and this app has become my main distraction. I’m just hoping there’s anyone else out there who can relate or even just offer some advice.