Questioning my sexualality?

So I know I’m attracted to men

I love men

But I also like women?

And not like bi

I wanna hold hands

Kiss

Hug

All relationship stuff

But having sex? Like eating a girl out and stuff... Idk..

I’ve heard of pillow princess, which kinda fits me, but I feel maybe I’m just straight and appreciate women.

But I also know I’ve had very very strong feelings for girls, like I wanna date them. It’s just going all the way I get nervous about.

I know gender doesn’t matter much to me, non-binary, trans, man, woman, doesn’t really matter

Is it possible I’m pan?