Can't wrap my head around it

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I posted before about how I found out I was pregnant a week before I found out my husband has been sleeping with another woman.

Well she's a co-worker and they've been doing it in her or his truck after work.

I found out via a letter from someone who works with him. It was anonymous

But detailed. Anyway the letter was post marked July 11th. But he says it started and ended before covid started.

Also he is apologetic but I feel only because he got caught and I'm not sure I can forgive him anyways. I work part-time and he brings in most the money. I have no where to go.

I can't wrap my head around it I feel like I'm stuck in a bad dream.

At first he told me he was stupid and messed up for reasons he wasn't sure. Then he came back later and said he couldn't help himself she was young and wanted him and I was still unattractive from having our 2 year old.

I am so lost and so hurt right now

Here's the note