I’m just typing this to vent..

So back in May my boyfriend started a new job as a CO. Great money. He quit a few weeks later because he didn’t like it. Totally okay. He got another new job right after that one. Horrible pay. $1400 a month. Well when he worked at the prison, we filled out an application for a new apartment and got accepted. The rent is $929 a month, with his CO job, he made plenty. But with the job now, it’s not cutting it at all with other bills, etc.

I own my own business making close to nothing a month. And I also work with my mom (housekeeping) 1-2 days a week. Making $200 a month. That’s to cover my car payment.

I also stay home with my toddler and I’m 31 weeks pregnant.

Well my boyfriend wants me to get a real job. Okay, I don’t mind working. So I look and look and apply for jobs. The problem is, childcare costs. If I get a day job, we’d need a babysitter which would be more than half of my paycheck. (NOT worth it) and if I got an overnight job, or opposite shift of his job, then I wouldn’t get NO rest. Considering I watch my son all day & do all my business stuff during the day. When would I sleep? So we ruled out both of those options..

My boyfriend and I were just talking about bills for August and we literally don’t have enough. He keeps making me feel like shit telling me I should get a job and help him out. But how?! We’ve been over it so many times. Babysitter=hardly any money leftover & overnight shift=when does mom sleep?

We got in a huge argument. He’s upset because I’m putting all the pressure on him to pay the bills but I literally don’t ask him to pay any of my bills, just the household bills.

He said “so I get to bust my ass all day while you sit on yours?” And I just can’t believe he’s one of those people who think a SAHM is easy. It’s very much NOT easy!!

He won’t get a new job & idk why. I tell him that his job pay sucks and that pay is a big factor in a job. Idk how to feel I just want help. I’m not blaming him or anything.. I know I should get a job I just don’t know how it would work..

We’re really struggling and it’s going to put a toll on our relationship and a big toll on my body.