i don’t wanna be *that* girl🥺

i know that this is terrible and that i’m terrible for something’s i’ve been doing these past couple months but just listen to this and try to help me out please. i met a guy on a cruise and we loved each other but one day my guy best friend from school said he had feeling and i quickly turned him down lightly and we are still friends. fast forward about 2 months and guy best friend. has a gf but is still flirting with me and i realize that i definitely have feelings for him and i tell him about it, all while i still have boy from cruise! 🤦🏻‍♀️🥺 ok another month passes and i break up with cruise boy because even though i loved him so much i couldn’t help my feelings for guy best friend. well now gbf is still low key flirting while he has his gf and i just want him so much! what do i do? i don’t won’t to be the girl that takes another woman’s man but i like him a lot. he makes me laugh and is athletic and is always there for me and i’m there for him so help please🥺🥺🥺