Trying everything to heal..

My life sucks now after we lost the baby on 11-10... I have to return to work Tuesday, not looking for to that. I'm having a hard time trying to be thankful... I cried for 4 days straight. This lose was not my first, so I know I couldn't lay in bed for days or weeks it make the healing process slower. So Day 5 I did some cleaning therapy, painting therapy, shopping therapy, making out therapy, wrote poem therapy and even some Christmas music therapy. We talked about a plan to try again when we were ready, I loved on my kids, and we even had our first family dinner since we found out we lost the baby. Something worked I didn't wake up crying. I never thought I would have to go through this pain again. Hoping at the end of all this pain I will have another baby. Thanks for who ever listens, I don't want to post on Facebook I don't think anyone will understand my feelings.