I just had our son on 6/30 and my boyfriend doesn’t want anything to do with me. Now, I don’t want (and can’t) have sex obviously. I mean he doesn’t hug me, touch me, or barley even looks at me. The only time he kisses me is when we go to sleep at night. He told me the other day that he doesn’t know if he even wants to have sex when I’m cleared because he saw my vagina (in labor) and “that thing was fucked” in his words. That he would “have to think about it”. My body/self confidence was close to nothing before having our son. After having him I have already lost 30 lbs and am smaller than I was before having him. I was feeling okay about my postpartum body and the way I looked but now I have no confidence at all.

All he does is come home from work and stays in the bathroom until it’s time for bed basically. Obviously I’m not stupid and hes jerking off. I get it, we can’t have sex so he jerks off... but he does it every day. I’ve tried and offered for me to “help out” by giving him head or a hand job and he has turned me down every time. He says I have to be clean because I take care of the baby....??????

It hurts me so much. I feel so unattractive, embarrassed and unloved. I don’t know what to do 😞

Am I wrong for feeling this way? Has anyone else had to go through this?

Edit: I ended up having a csection because baby was stuck so all he saw was my vagina when pushing. Not even having him vaginally!!