So in june I found I was pregnant and unfortunately I had to terminate due to complications with my son which has broken me to pieces, since then I have been trying to have another baby I know I will never replace my son and dont want to but I still haven't had a perriod and its been six weeks I have done test of test no positive and I feel like am putting major stress on my self to fall pregnant again as I miss the feeling of knowing I was carrying something so precious I made a memory box to help me remember and so I can still write letters to my son who I named charlie but I still feel so down and feel like a bad mam when lost him and had to pass I felt so much anger to my self that I couldn't help but i was told he wouldn't have made it to 20 weeks gestation and I didnt want him to suffer but i am hoping when i fall pregnant again i can have an easier pregnancy and give charlie a sibling who will be my rainbow.