In need of encouragement

I have been off my meds (for sleep and mental health) for two months now so we can TTC #1 under my doctor's supervision.

I have had horrible insomnia, anxiety and depression since stopping meds. It's gotten so bad it is now causing heart palpitations, nasea, migraines, I'm physically shaking a lot, and I am starting to completely break down physically and mentally.

I was really hoping this time I was getting progressively worse due to pregnancy, but I just barely started my period. I want a baby so badly, but this is really hard.