When we’re you done TTC

Ladies. I have had about all I can take with all this. I got pregnant within 3 months with my first and 2 months with my second (yes, my kids are 11 months apart). Both c section, first emergency and second planned (hemorrhaged 1 week after my 1st c section. Got on depo literally 2 days after I had my second. Was only on it for about 3-6 months. Had a horrible reaction to it. Since then, it’s been nothing but a downfall (still haven’t lost the birth control weight, 1 year of TTC with no luck, random cysts on my ovaries that I’ve never had before pregnancy, and different other health issues, like anemia, bowel issues and stomach issues).... I am holding on to some sort of hope, that I don’t even know it existed. I am so frustrated!!! Doctor thinks maybe endometriosis BUT if she said if she goes into surgery, she will make it to where I can’t have kids, and I don’t want to be done having kids.... so between that, not getting any answers to my infertility and just general Infertility, I have just had it!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭