Im finally getting sleep i get a call to get my son Erik ready. I ask where hes going he said not to worry about it. I said hes my kid i need to know what your doing with him and he says he wants to take him to konobles(amusement park) Im not happy there was no warning, maybe i would of liked to have that time spent with my own kid, but they avoid involving me because of the baby. Which i could of made arrangements for with my mother till 4 when his father gets home from work. But no i have no right to be upset about the spurr of the moment decision to take my son somewhere im not allowed to go do with him. I told him no. He calls me back and im feeding the baby and he is talking about it while on speaker now i have an upset child and apparently nobody is going because grandpa made it out that im being ungrateful of having time away from erik to relax. Its like wtf im not ungrateful of any help, but thing like that would be nice to be involved in since im on leave and there is nothing else i can do with my first born son, and everyone else wants to make these memories with him but im not allowed to fuck that. And god forbid i was asking to go not uncle and aunt it would of been an issue to ask them. Im running on no sleep and i have a kid begging to go and now i have to feel like god damn shit and deal with this all day. I was literally finally getting sleep because my oldest decided to sleep in and i finally got the baby down for a few hours, and now im bawling my eyes out because i feel like i ruined everyone else’s day because i basically said no if hes going i want to be able to go to. Which they then throw having a new baby in my face. Like it has to be right now you couldnt of told me a week ago or even yesterday about it since apparently it was mentioned last week and i could of made plans to go. He said there would be no room. I do have a car and been driving for 8 years. Its like they wanted to keep

Me completely out of the picture. My grandpa said i just wanted to do something with my great grandson since there is nothing else to do with him. Well grandpa thats exactly how i feel, but you want me to just suck it all up and not give a shit.