Im so stressed mamas!

Isebella

Mama's, I had my precious baby girl June 4th. I hemorrhaged, she was born not breathing. I was kept 3 days, only to have to go back in because I had placenta still inside my uterus. Developed an infection and was put on antibiotics, it made breastfeeding so hard. I ended up with Mastitis, been on two antibiotics to help clear it up, I still have it and it's so painful. I'm dried up with my breast milk sadly now. My babies father passed away, so I'm a single mom. I came to visit my mother, since being here they have helped me, but today has gotten me so upset. I started my menses, so I've been cramping. My breast hurts so bad I can not hold my baby on my left side. My two older boys 11 and 4, were acting up and I got upset, I yelled at them. After taking a shower, I tried to braid my son's hair, and I just couldn't. I tried for two hours before I said forget it. My son's now throwing a tantrum because he wants his hair braided. My mom told me I needed to relax and that I'm getting upset for nothing. She kept saying negative things about me and joking about me. Sending me posts of photos making fun of me. I felt so discouraged. Then my baby girl started crying and my mom started talking crap, saying she can't breathe right. My son was holding her, so she took her from him. She's making me feel like such a bad mom for one day that I'm off. My 11 year old rubbed my back and said, don't let them get to me. I'm just so upset today😭.