I need help

I have severe anxiety that I got under control but it came back with quarantine. My anxiety stems around my health and I panic that every medicine I take will give me psychosis/hallucinations/depression, etc which worries me because I already don’t have any support system or money for therapy with the illness I do have and another one would just crush me. I also get extreme anxiety that I’ll die of sleep deprivation because of my insomnia. I recently took miralax for constipation and I can’t stop crying because everyone online says it causes autism and schizophrenia. I’m tired of these worries and I just want someone to talk to or someone to comfort me.