My time is up

Unfortunately I have bleeding for a couple weeks but it was nothing concerning .. but tonight the doctors advised me to head to the Er do you a size small ball blood clot . My numbers went from 956-1426-440 and they believe I had a miscarriage they want me to get more labs done to see but honestly I am just so emotionally drained at this point, I had two healthy pregnancy and this is my first miscarriage I am not sure if I will be able to cope with this ... my little baby who I never got to see hear a heart beat or hold is gone forever and I am not prepared to face the truth or to tell my 4 year old he will not be getting a baby sister .. my heart is shattered 😭😢💔 my Journey has ended , good luck to all the ladies who are due in March 2021 , may god bless who with healthy happy babies