Help, I don’t know

So idk if I’ve having orgasms, I’ve rubbing my clit and then I get this feeling like shaking idk, and it feels so good but it doesn’t last long, it’s short. But here’s my other problem, whenever I’m feeling like this I can’t stop thinking like this is not me, what’d my parents say?, what’d they think? Or I just can’t stop thinking bout my father, mother (NOT IN A SEXUAL WAY). I don’t know how to stop it because in itself it doesn’t last, this way less :(.