Last night I had a dream that I saw a baby n someone told me it was mine. In my dream my husband went to the store to buy a carrier, stroller you know basic baby stuff because I was so unprepared it's like I never knew I was pregnant..while he was gone I laid on the carpet in my home n placed the baby on my chest and just watched him sleep soundly for hours as I just caressed his little head. I could feel him breathing and his heart beating. My heart felt so content and full I was just so happy the dream felt so real.

I woke up this morning n reality hit me that we were just the same childless couple, I'm feeling so broken and just so sad and depressed right now. Why would a dream so beautiful make me feel so horrible.. is it because it was truly a nightmare and my heart would never be that content or for filled in life with a child..was I seeing and feeling things I would never get to experience...

I just had to get this off my chest..no one in my life understands how I'm feeling about this situation they just can't relate.