WTH is goin on w/my mo*her f*cking cycle these past x2month(s)?!?

•~• Last month/cycle: ("July, 2020")= AF was actually EARLY IN THE MONTH OF, JULY!! (BY 3-4DAYS!!)

•~• This month/cycle: ("August, 2020")= AF IS LATE! TODAY WOULD MAKE IT LATE BY x5DAYS!!! & LADIES, THIS IS EXTREMELY HIGHLY AND VERRRY UNUSUAL AND COMPLETELY (NOT!) "NORMAL", FOR ME! "When it comes to AF and her timing cycles n stuff...

IDK WTF or WTH to think, ladies!?!

Like, I wanna go to the store today, and get s bunch of different brands of tests(digitals+Reg. Line Tests, too..) and take them! But ya see, I'm so scared and afraid and worried that their alllllll just going to come up, "(-)" !!BFN!! OR " NOT PREGNANT"!! &it's like, I'm Soo sick and tired of seeing negatives on the tests I take or not pregnant on digitals!! It just completely breaks my heart. Shatters it really. It devastates me!! Due to me and my partner, we've been actively TTC for 2.5+yrs. It's been a lonnng Journey.

I've been diagnosed w/ PCOS + INFERTILITY DIAGNOSIS, just very recently. (2mos Ago, in June, 2020 to be exact....)

Opinions, ladies?!? What should I do!? I NEEEED some advice please and thank you for reading!! Much and greatly appreciated 4ur time +support during and throughout this extremely difficult and hard time in my partner And I's life...

My partner, feels as If, "he is failing me, as a man, and as a Father for our children of the future that we've always talked about and dreamed of and about... He feels and tells me that he thinks he's holding me back and that I shouldn't stay with him or marry him; Bcuz he cannot produce or give me the children that we've always spoken about and talked about having together with one another once we were ready and time was "right.." : ((whatever"right" is....??))

He says if I still want to have more children and kids, and soon, that I should seriously consider on finding another/ a partner: whom is fertile and can have chulre and will not have such a hard and difficult time and won't take 'as long' as it has, Us.. him and I...

I completely and highly DISAGREE WITH ALLLLL THE ABOVE!!+ THENNN SOME WHERE THAT CAME FROM!?! I LOVE MY PARTNER. I LOVE MY FIANCE SOON TO BW HUSBAND NEXT JULY. 13TH, OF 2021! (WE'RE GETTIF MARRIED ON MY BIRTHDAY, IN THE FOLLOWING JULY.. THAT'LL BE MY 27TH B-DAY!! STILL SO YOUNG.

But every year, as my age increases, my chances and likihood of conceiving, naturally, that is, anyways.

I feel and this is from my heart. And soul. To my husband to be... Baby. We will try and try and God works in mysterious ways most time there's a reason for this to take so long.trust and believe that my Love

..and if it's not with u or you're not the father of my next children, I'd rather just either do I. V. F or whatever it's called?? The procedures where they insert his sperm into my womb, etc.. or just continue on trying to conceive NATURALLY.. THRU OUR DEEP TRUE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!! AND IT'LL HAPPEN WHEN THE TIME'S RIGHT baby it really will!!!

We just have to keeeeeep having lots and lots of FAITH(e) like my middle name, lol. And have hope forever and ever. We're not giving up now babe, we have come WAAAAAy too far now on our TTC JOURNEY: TO JUST SIMPLY, GIVE UP. AND STOP/QUIT TRYING.

AF'S LATE THO GUYS. WISH US LUCK:-P WOULD YA, PLEASE!? We need and could definitely use ALLLLL and any PRAYERS that we could possibly get, from anyone!! Please and tHank u. God bless everyone!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏👋👣👣👣💞💋💔💤💎💍💍💍💄