I mean I do have an extensive history of awful nightmares dating back to before I could even talk. They wake me up in a panic/crying sometimes (before, very often).

To clarify, he’s given me zero reason to question him. He also puts up with all of my overthinking issues because he knows about my bad past. He’s honestly the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I wonder if that’s why I’m so scared to lose him. It’s the first time I’ve felt like I’ve actually found the one and that scares me. I hate letting people close enough to have that big of an affect on me.