So.. a few minutes ago I was feeding a bottle to my 11 week old boy. My husband was with me in the same room. That’s when he started crying again while I was feeding him the bottle.. and I lost it. I told my husband I need a break from this crying and screaming all day and that I wish we would’ve waited longer to have a second baby and that I don’t love him. He’s been a really sensitive, crying, screaming and fussy baby since birth. It makes it SO very hard to bond. It makes me hiss at my toddler although Im usually not like this and I feel so sorry that she doesn’t get too much quality time with mommy anymore cause I’m always so exhausted from all the loud noises and crying.. there hasn’t been one day where he was a content little fella.. not one! He cries all the time and we try to hold him, change diapers often, check if he’s hungry. If he’s in pain (colic Bad here) if he’s too hot or cold. Give him nice baths, play with him etc. seriously we tried it all. And it makes me cringe when I hear him screaming and grunting. I even start to hear his voice even when he’s not crying. It takes a huge mental toll on me.. please tell me I’m not alone 😩 I wasn’t able to enjoy much so far cause he’s just crying and complaining almost non stop 😢 I seriously feel like there’s something wrong with him cause I know how colic sounds like and this is something else. All day everyday. Man.. I’ve never appreciated my toddler more than now 😭 I’m going nuts y’all 🤧