okay, so last friday my husband and i were hanging out with our friends Madi and Wesley. we were all super close and hung out often. my parents kept my daughter that night, so it was just the four of us. madi and i were drinking and we both got very intoxicated. as the night progressed and the drinks kept going down, we all started talking about sexual things. madi and i have both been sexual abused and have been through a lot of stuff. we got on the topic of taking about things in detail about our past. both of our husbands just sat back and listened. madi and i were talking about how we were both curious about being with girls. somehow (and i’m not totally sure on this part because i was in and out of it) we ended up convincing our husbands to let us kiss. madi, my husband (who was not drinking), and myself all remember wesley agreeing to being okay with it. it was supposed to be an innocent kiss. we ended up making out for a minute and then my husband and i left. the next morning, i woke up to several texts about how wesley was telling madi a lot of awful things and basically telling her she was this awful person and that he wanted to leave her. so, i was trying to calm her down and tell her that it was dumb but we aren’t awful people and she was texting me back and i was trying to help her figure out how to work things out with him. so, i text her the next day and she totally ignores me. i’ve reached out to her three days in a row and have gotten no response. i’m really upset because we shared a lot of personal things that night and now i feel like she has just abandoned me. it doesn’t help that my depression is already really bad right now and i am struggling with myself and now all the feelings from my past is coming back up. am i the worst person ever??