hey ladies 😊✨ i’m needing a great help of support, and nice feedback only please!!

i got cheated on, well over a year ago but i found out a year ago this month so it hits me very hard, as it should... the girl he cheated with, i very well believe he loved her or had some left over feelings for her due to being together 4 years. they broke up i guess it was toxic and that’s when he got w me. he’s now been w me 2 years. i look at this girls page every single day.. multiple times.. i stare and look to see if she’s prettier than me, is thicker than me, darker skinned than me & this EATS ME ALIVE!!! i try so hard to not search her up but it’s so hard. and i know it’s pathetic. any ladies who went through this hardship & went through this stage? how do i grow out of this? i don’t wanna live this way. i’m trying to love myself again, but i always feel like it gets me nowhere..