I’m scared...

I was seeing this guy for a while and I was very adamant on not having sex with him until I got to know him some more. He told me from the beginning he has HPV. So that was another reason i wanted to wait.

One night that I was hanging out with him and his friends we were drinking, and I know that I didn’t drink enough to black out...

I was drinking white claws that night. I don’t remember a thing after heading to the bathroom and coming back to my drink...

the next morning I woke up naked in his bed...

I know many women have been in the situation before. Where you were taken advantage of but you have no proof other than your personal experience.

This morning I woke up with this bump on my leg. And I’m so scared because I know I did not consent to having sex... I’m so afraid... I’m going to get tested this coming week. I just feel so alone right and I feel so stupid because I didn’t know how to approach the conversation with him the next morning. Out of fear. 

I haven’t talked to him since I decided to end things.

I just need guidance and support right now.. I can’t stop from feeling guilty and unworthy. Who is going to want to spend a life with me if I do have HPV? Perhaps I’m freaking out and sat on something that caused this reaction but it looks similar to images I found on google.