is it okay to wanting hurt myself after an argument with bf?

everytime i had an argument with my bf, i started to feel bad and guilty and even hate myself. he always think that i accused him over everything when all I did was asking him nicely. Yesterday he had enough when i ask him if his friends knew me as a girlfriend, because I never met or getting to know his friends (he never introduce me, everytime i asked him to introduce me, he always says later). Everytime i had an argument with my bf, i always the one who apologize for telling him how i feel. Is it okay to feel like this? I feel like i'm killing myself and feel like i want to hurt myself and i know its not okay but telling him this will make situation even worse..