Good morning all...

Just need some words of encouragement... Friday at 8:05 am my dad passed away, my family and I thought it was time to let him go.. he was suffering so much for so long... he had even asked my mom a day before to just please let him go... with all this covid that’s going on we weren’t able to see him until Thursday when we went to say our goodbyes.. oh my god!! The face that he had once he heard my moms voice and saw her... that love right there is so rare.. and they had it... Friday morning I get a call that he passed away peaceful in his sleep.. I felt like my whole world ended.. I am 9 weeks pregnant, on that same day I saw the baby’s heart beat.. but I felt resentment, I felt like this baby has taken my dad’s life so the baby can live.. I know that’s not how it works.. I feel horrible for feeling this way.. my dad died without knowing I am pregnant.. the few people that know about this pregnancy, say that it’s my dads gift... I am holding back the tears cause of the headaches and I can’t pop pills for the pain... it’s like right now, idk how to take care of myself and this pregnancy.. I do want this baby.. I know my dad would of been so happy... it’s so hard...