Idk what's been going on..

Is it me or is it too much to want affection. Like damn! Can I get a little love? I love being hugged, cuddled n kissed once in awhile. Now a days I cant even get a kiss without it being awkward. This shit is weird to me. It makes me feel so awkward when I'm the only one that gives affection but can barely receive it. Been together 3 years and it used to be less awkward now it's more and more awkward.. we make good domestic partners. But hard to be on the same page emotionally. Never met someone so emotionally unavailable.