Anatomy scan tomorrow and anxiety

I’ve lost 3 back to back second trimester. I have so much anxiety as I can’t imagine ever holding a newborn due to history.

I’m so scared tomorrow they will find horrible problems and they baby is not going to live much longer.

I know I sound irrational but I’ve had such horrible luck that I can’t imagine tomorrow going well. I’m so scared and feel sick to my stomach.

Anyone else scared and felt horrible but scan was fine after countless losses