I used to was against my husband watching porn, but i decided to let it go, cause i realzied that i cant stop him.

Anyways, whenever we have sex, he gets limp in the middle of it, and no matter what i do, sometimes he just cant get it back up. He told me he wants to watch porn with me, while we are having sex. He says thats the only way he can get hard again. He also told me there will always be someone more attractive than i am. But it doesnt mean he likes them, it just have to do with the chemistry. He ask me if i can watch porn with him while we are having sex. He said he will only look at me, not her. He also said he only want to watch porn to “learn new moves.”

I decided to give it a try, he would have me pick a porn video, but he cant get up still. So he picked the videos himself, he only watches pov porn. Looks like hes the one fucking them. Throughout the sex, he was only looking at her, not me. Even when he cums, he looks at her, he rarely looks at me whenever he cums. He began picking out videos, and watching it himself, and not with me. It feels like hes only using my body, while hes getting off to her. Like instead of using his hands, he uses my body. There was also times he ask me to give him a handjob while he watches pov porn.

I felt humilated and downgraded, so i told him i no longer want to watch porn. And if he wants to watch porn, then he can use his hands instead of my body. Which hes doing so whenever he cant get off to me, which is mostly every time we have sex. Hed stop having sex with me and go masturbate to other women instead.

He was very upset that i felt this way, he says theres nothing wrong with watching and getting off to porn. But guys, i feel so unattractive to him now that he cant get off to me, but can to other women. And he no longer satisfy me in bed, cause i dont feel emotionally connected to him. I feel like im always there, but he is never there with me in reality while we have sex. Seems like hes only using my body while hes mentally having sex with her.

Ive taked to him about this and he just gets upset. He says i think and talk nonsense.

Do i need to leave him? I no longer feel wanted or loved by him. I feel like he doesnt love or want me anymore. Sometimes i feel like i want to cheat on him honestly cause his attention is elsewhere :(