How do i find the strength to leave abusive man?

My husbands words and actions tells me that he doesnt love me, but i cant leave him at all. I feel like my world is falling apart without him, although i know i would be better without him. Idk what is wrong with me. Any suggestions?

My husband has cheated on me many times, but i forgave him, and still stayed. Hes also compare me and my vagina to other women and to his exes, that theyre better than i am. Hes also calls me names all the time. Hes very mentally and emotionally abusive. He gets physically abusive here and there too.

He has admitted to me that he doesnt love me and is unfair to me, he promises he will change, but theyre always empty promises. Hed then change his answer, and tell me that his sins are not any worst than mine. But i havent done anything wrong to him, but only reported him to the cops like 3x already.

He says im the one that needs to change, and if i cant then i need to let him go.

I cant find the strength to leave him at all.