Anyone feel the same? FTMS?

So this is my first pregnancy, first baby, and I’m about 8 weeks away from due date but it’ll randomly hit me that I’m going to have a whole ass baby soon. It took me a while to feel pregnant, during the first several months I was numb to the idea not happy or sad just numb. I finally feel her all the time and finally more happy then numb but still not 100% excited jumping for joy but I think I am in denial that it’s an actual little person growing and that she’s going to go from this little wiggly worm in my tummy to a baby in my arms that I have to keep alive and that will be mine FOREVER. I see the baby clothes, I’m getting/buying things little by little but when I do that it’s not registering that these things are going to be used for a baby.

I don’t know. All the hormones and the time flying by is starting to make me panic. 😩😂

Anyone feel the same or felt this way with the first time?