My 8 month old is fussy today. She didn't sleep well (do neither did I) and I went to change her and she wouldn't stop rolling. I was so tired and frustrated and I found myself saying her name sharply and loud, which helps no one.
She's climbing everywhere she isn't supposed to be and it's exhausting.
Then she wouldn't take her bottle and smacked it out of my hand. I finally threw my hands up and said, "that's it, mommy needs a break!" My husband took over.
I feel guilty, this is the first time I ever admitted to needing a break.
I feel guilty for harshly saying her name while changing her. And keeping a hand on her to keep her from rolling.
I feel guilty that I couldn't keep my cool today and have patience.
So yeah, I feel like a terrible mother.