11 weeks today and the reality is hitting me that I'm going to be a mom ...my boyfriend  isn't my babies father but we have been on and off for the past 5 yrs . He is excited and he wants to be involved in the babies life but a small part of me still wants the biological dad to be around .... Even though he told me get an abortion& he does not want to be involved whatsoever ... I feel so bad about it because I know I have a good man that has my back but those thoughts of the biological dad coming around still come and go I know that he (my boyfriend ) has sensed something is bothering me but I don't want to hurt him anymore than I already have 💔 espeacilly when I know the love we have and share is real and genuine I just feel wrong for even having those thoughts