Just need some support 😪

Advice please 😪

I have a colicky baby at the moment and it’s been really hard and starting to take a toll on me I went 3 nights with no sleep non stop crying from me and baby girl guess that’s what I enjoyed about those nights we had our girly cries together 😂 my partner last night decided to stay up with her while I had some sleep I ended up crying myself to sleep cause I felt like a rubbish mum I honestley feel like there’s nothing o can do to settle her or help her all day today she’s been all her dad everytime Iv held her or talked to her even kissed her she cried and screamed I full on balled my eyes out cause soons I put her in her basket she drifted of when she realised her dad wasn’t in the room ( he went to bed ) i just can’t settle her , do anything to help her ( she has colic drops ) when my partner tries he does it he’s an absloute god with her

From day 3 Iv felt pretty overwhelmed and little stuff has set me of for example again today me and my partners grandad was strapping her in the car I knew how to strap the car seat in saftley and he ended up undoing how I did it ( which was really safe for her ) and doing it another way where the seat wobbled quite easy 😳 i did say somthing and he said he had practiced while i was in the hopstial with her , meaning no baby in the seat while he practiced meaning it was more lighter so probably wouldnt have fallen or anything , not the same when there’s an actual baby in it ,I had to hold onto the seat throughout the ride while trying to settle her through her screaming I just wanted to scream at every person in car for allowing her to put at risk 🤦🏻‍♀️( surley that’s acceptable I guess )

I find it quite hard to describe how I’m feeling but I feel it’s beginning of PPD I brought it up to my friend and she said she thinks I’m just stressed and it’s not that now I feel pretty stupid about going to the doctors about how I’m feeling cause it could very well be stress

I am finding it hard to cope I’m not going to lie but I’m also powering through for my little girl cause I don’t want to feel like I failed her but no matter what I seem to be feeling that way even when I achieve somthing like getting her to sleep or changing her nappy with no poo I feel I failed her sounds stupid I know but she don’t poo much 🤦🏻‍♀️

I guess I’m looking for some support more than advice