Depression and showers

So I find it SO hard to shower. I haven’t showered since Friday night. Don’t fucking be rude please. NO I don’t smell bad and yes I take a “hoe bath” to wipe and clean the important areas. I just don’t have the motivation to shower completely and wash my hair and shave. And then dry off to put on clothes. Brush my hair and all that. My therapist told me it’s totally normal with depression/ocd and that some tasks require a lot of energy mentally and physically and for me showering is one of them. Because I count everything. Not that I know I’m doing it. But I do. And it sucks. It’s fine I guess as long as I don’t smell bad. But when I FORCE myself to take a shower it ends bad. Usually me crying and having a panic attack until my husband comes to get me. And like ITS EMBARRASSING. This is a newer problem we’ve discovered. And I fucking hate it. I use to shower EVERY night. And like I always shower before sex and stuff BECAUSE he gets in with me and I’m okay. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel disgusting saying this out loud. Any suggestions?