I’ve been anorexic and I got treatment I’ve been bulimic and I got treatment. I know the brain works and the eating disorder monster talks how to get rid of him...

covid 19 happen and I thought the world was ending. Why not indulge and treat yourself for the things you feel guilty eating? For the foods you’ve denied yourself time after time. I gained weight. I wasn’t going anywhere just eating. 130 to 150 20lbs I feel it everyday. I see it everyday. I hate myself for letting me be weak. I hate myself because the clothes in my closet no longer fit. I used to be beautiful. I regret ever believing I was fat because now... now I TRULY hate myself.