I wanna be myself again

I’ve been struggling with my anxiety a lot I start eating very little because of my fear of choking and I always panic when I think about swallowing it’s got the point where my mom thinks bulimic because I always run to the bathroom to wash my mouth of left over food and since anxiety make me feel like puking I gag but she don’t understand what I go through and she calls me crazy which I’m not and it makes me feel ten times worse,I just want to be me again and be normal but this anxiety has me on a short leash