I found out on 10/7 that I was pregnant with my first child. However, nothing was right with it from day one (cramping and bleeding) and on 10/16 I found out I miscarried. Fast forward to this month, I knew we had conceived, I just knew it. Well Monday I got a faint positive and was so excited but I was trying not to get too excited being that it was so faint. Well Tuesday morning I got another very faint positive but then the cramping started. I went in for a blood test and the results came back as positive but my hCG was only at 10 (same way the last one started), so we scheduled a repeat blood test for Thursday. Then last night the bleeding started and today the cramping and bleeding have continued. I called the doctor and she immediately said it's a chemical pregnancy but to still come in on Thursday for blood work. I am devastated! They say not to blame yourself, that these things happen. But when you have two back to back it's hard not to think that something is wrong with you. Why your body can't do the one thing it's supposed to do. You feel like you are failing at being a woman. I can't even look at my SO right now because I feel like I'm letting him down. My heart is broken right now.