🤍🕊blessings and positivity

I don’t want to seem like a irresponsible person.. but can anyone help me? Comment places to get baby things cheap or freebies? I’m struggling and not that far along yet but due to my circumstances everything feels like it’s falling apart and I have nothing to fall back on and I’m worried about my baby 💔 I was told to get an abortion because he wasn’t ready and I didn’t... I feel alone and I feel like I’m punishing my baby by not listening to the father and his family. My moms sick my family’s going through their own shit I really felt in my heart I could do this. I’m scared and I’m worried I love this baby already so much but I hate myself for bringing a baby into life this way right now. Due in March. Any advice, websites or guidance planning will help🕊🤍 god bless you all, thank you.