So I’m 29 and my husband and I have decided to try for a baby. I have always known that I wanted to be a mother and was over the moon when my husband suggested we start trying. The problem is I have PMDD and have been on the pill to control it since I was 16. And I have been on antidepressants 2 weeks out of the month to control the horrible and quite embarrassing mood swings. I agreed with my doctor to go as natural as possible because I also have ADHD and hypertension, and the medications for those conditions that I was aren’t known to be safe. I am off all medications for the first time since I was 14 years old. I’m 3 weeks off of them and I feel awful and crazy. I can handle some of the stuff, but the PMDD is just awful. I didn’t quite remember how bad it was until now. I have looked and couldn’t find anyone who was going through what I am feeling right now. I am so bloated and my breasts hurt so bad. I am exhausted and I have had an upset stomach on and off for about 5 days now. It’s awful because these symptoms could be pregnancy symptoms but they are not, because I have take two tests and both are negative. If my symptoms are so bad now, I can’t imagine what I’m going to feel when I start my period. I wish I could just go off the pill like most women and think when it happens, it happens. But for me, each month I don’t get pregnant, I go though physical hell and emotional hell. I have had a meltdown almost every day for the past 2 weeks. And I’m usually so down to earth and level-headed that it makes me sick. My husband is the sweetest, more supportive, and patient person I have ever met, but he can’t understand how I’m feeling right now. Is there anyone out there waiting to get pregnant while dealing with PMDD hell?