Today I can feel the crack in my soul

Lindsay • Matthew has taken up my heart!

Sorry, post is long. I need to vent.

My March baby is a year and a half old. I went back to work the day he turned 8 weeks. I didnt have a choice, my husband and I dont make enough for me to stay home.

Today my little boy woke up hungry, grandma lives with us and helps take care of him along with my sister in law. MIL is free and I pay my sister in law.

Baby makes a mmmmm sound when he wants food, so I started to take out toaster and bread to give him toast. Grandma comes down and announces he's hungry and to make him toast. I let her know Im on it, she says yeah you don't know all his maneurisms because you're not here. Stab #1. OUCH!

She takes over making toast. I move on to my coffee I have to leave to work. Baby sees the toast and starts making the mmm sounds, grandma says to him "its ok baby, toast is coming and mama will soon be here." Stab in the soul!! I turned around and said Im him mama Im right here. She laughed and said "yeah its ok his aunt is also like his mom she's with him all the time and she loves him like a mom."

She wasnt being mean, or said it with malice. She is genuinely the nicest woman on the planet. But I said it very sternly. Im his mother, Im his only mother.

She got the hint and quickly scrambled to give baby the toast and left the room.

I would do anything to be home with my baby, not have anyone else watch him. To kiss and hug him, feed him play with him, teach him. My poor MIL didnt say it to be mean, but her comments really hurt.

Deeply hurt.