My last string of hope..

On my last round of clomid (6th cycle) and this time we're going to add metformin. I'm getting really depressed. I used to be a cutter, and it's taking everything I got to not cut. Please no bashing, I do that to myself enough for everyone...this pcos has really taken a toll on my body, gain weight so easily but to lose it is so freaking hard..2012 I got pregnant and it ended in a miscarriage 3 years later and one year off BC and I'm here..anyways I just needed a place to get my words out seems like no one understands.